Sunlight

Rajan Balana on January 25, 2025, Category: Reflections

Sunlight is something that I get in abundance in the part of India where I live. I never noticed how strongly my mental and physical energy is linked with it until I started working till late in night.

At the time of writing, it is peak winter season in the northern part of India. It is common to not have sunshine for days in a row. I observed, on such days, my energy levels are relatively low and mood feels gloomy.

Back in time, when I was hunting for the house where I currently live, I had selected it because of the amount of sunlight it receives, so much so that I didn’t need to turn on lights until it’s dark outside.

Recently, I and my partner were thinking of living outside of India, I never thought the amount of sun light a country receives would be a deal breaking factor in it.

I came across a thread on Twitter, where people discussing the exact same topic, it made me realize that I’m not alone who find the gray weather mentally depressing and boring, especially if it remains for extended periods of time like weeks or months in row.

Importance of Walking

Rajan Balana on January 6, 2025, Category: Random

I couldn’t help but notice that I’m able to think a lot better and in depth when I’m walking relative to any other activity.

Walking offers the time where one can be with themselves. I didn’t feel the same while jogging or running as it requires me to distribute my focus such as keeping an eye on the road as well as people around (so they don’t bump into me). That’s also why I prefer walking in a park or on a secluded road.

Walking is therapeutic. I find it most effective doing it early in the morning on empty stomach. And not to forget, it comes with immense physical and mental health benefits.

I’ve personally brainstormed on a lot of ideas and analysed many situations while walking. I would highly recommend walking to anyone and everyone who see it as a daily chore.

Ability To Do Nothing

Rajan Balana on January 3, 2025, Category: Random

Lately, I have been noticing that I am using my mobile phone a bit too much. Not because, I have something important to do every time I pick it up, but rather to keep myself occupied.

It doesn’t feel like a good habit. It seems like as I’m trying to run from myself, which comes out when I’m sitting doing nothing. And honestly, it feels a bit scary to be in a situation where you are literally doing nothing and sitting there just with yourself. In a way, face to face with yourself.

Whenever I find myself in such a situation, I generally start to reflect on things I’m currently doing or things I have been doing for some time. You may think of it as overthinking. As I start to feel overwhelmed just after being a few mins into this. Before, I could get any further, Bam! Distraction pulls me out.

I don’t know if not coming back or not giving enough weight to these thoughts is normal. And whether this will do me more harm in the future.

Deep down, I feel it certainly is not normal, and I should do something about it.