Ability To Do Nothing

Lately, I have been noticing that I am using my mobile phone a bit too much. Not because, I have something important to do every time I pick it up, but rather to keep myself occupied.

It doesn’t feel like a good habit. It seems like as I’m trying to run from myself, which comes out when I’m sitting doing nothing. And honestly, it feels a bit scary to be in a situation where you are literally doing nothing and sitting there just with yourself. In a way, face to face with yourself.

Whenever I find myself in such a situation, I generally start to reflect on things I’m currently doing or things I have been doing for some time. You may think of it as overthinking. As I start to feel overwhelmed just after being a few mins into this. Before, I could get any further, Bam! Distraction pulls me out.

I don’t know if not coming back or not giving enough weight to these thoughts is normal. And whether this will do me more harm in the future.

Deep down, I feel it certainly is not normal, and I should do something about it.